See this? This is a picture of me in a one piece. It’s what settling looks like.
I know that the end of January and the beginning of February have been a blogging dry spell. This is because I haven’t had a lot of positivity to contribute to the blogosphere. Quite honestly, it’s hard to sit down and write about — what I believe is only seasonal — depression. (See? Doesn’t that word just look bad in writing?)
I don’t know if I just miss the Maui sun, or if it’s just this time of year, but my mood has been up and down like an ultrasound (those things go up and down, don’t they? Yes? No? Well, I know they make some sort of movement).
Since I have been withholding all this pessimism up until now, I will sum up what’s been getting me down lately:
- I did not wear a bikini in Maui for a variety of reasons that I won’t go into.
- I have not yet started Month 2 of the Insanity Workout (although I do intend to repeat the program in its entirety in the future.) I have been refraining from weighing myself because of this fact.
- My mom has moved out of our home to live with her new husband. Truth be told, it gets rather lonely around here.
- Car shopping and kitten shopping, the two most exciting aspects of my life at the moment, have been annoyingly and unavoidably delayed.
- Because of the above listed things, I have had little motivation to eat right and exercise.
However, since today was a rather good day, I feel motivated to write. It’s days like today that remind me how to be the cause of my own happiness.
First of all, I bought a fresh new outfit: moccasins, skinny jeans, and a shirt-dress. Shopping has the power to cause emotions to soar up or plummet right into the ground. Today was a good day for shopping; I could sense it. I didn’t even fret when my usual pants size turned out to be snug. I picked sizes that fit and flattered my body correctly without becoming defensive at the clothing manufacturers. This resulted in me feeling good about myself and my purchase. Often times — and I’m sure you can relate — I coerce myself into buying sizes that don’t fit quite right because I intend on shrinking into them later. And you know what? That just makes me feel like shit about myself later on. So it’s just like Stacy and Clinton say on What Not To Wear, “you have to select clothes that fit you NOW.”
Reason number two for why today was a good day: I utilized the buddy system. When I can’t seem to muster up the motivation to exercise, I’m always relieved when a friend asks if I want to workout with them. Today, my friend Kenzie made my life much easier when she invited herself over to do Amy Dixon’s Ultimate Fat Burn (it’s our favorite). Just seeing her come through the door dressed down in active wear gave me that nudge that I needed. Having Kenz there throughout the workout also made it more fun because we got to chat for the whole 38 minutes.
Today I have a new outfit that I love, I feel refreshed after my workout, and I feel motivated for tomorrow. I’ve had a revelation that while I may not be making a great effort to lose weight right now, that doesn’t mean I can’t make an effort to not gain weight. This realization makes it easier to find the motivation to exercise and eat healthy.
To top it all off, there is a good chance that I will be adopting a new kitten tomorrow! If that didn’t brighten my spirits I would be deeply concerned. Yes. Today was a good day.